hey
u dont use ur eyes to c
u use ur heart to feel

u dunnid to do much to own a place in mi heart..
certain things neednt be said..
certain things neednt be done
in order to prove dat u mean a lot to mi

even so
u can say a lot of stuff
u can do a lot of stuff for mi
n still nt prove ur five cent's worth

i nver tried to please pple
instead i often offended pple wif mi frankness n forthrightness..
i haf mi own tots.. n if u tink i wear mi heart on mi sleeve
i guess u r wrong?

these days been tinking a lot
(since when haf i not been tinking a lot?)
i grew up a little i realised
i used to enjoy hafing a bit of everything
towards every aspect of mi life.. i wanted a taste..
i cldn decide...
but now im clear of wad i wan

n no longer am i settling for the mediocre jus becos the rite one hasn appeared
dat sounds mean..

i woke up at 11 today
but u noe.. i woke up every 20mins since 7plus..
i dreamt finished dreaming i woke up
den feel super tired n went back to sleep again

wad was on mi mind
hu was on mi mind
hmm
i felt veri veri tired cos i really cant remember the last time i had a good nite's slp

yet at the same time grace feels fulfilled n happy regardless wad
really regardless wad..
the whole world can collapse but
xiao yi xiao mei shen me guo bu liao(:

i alr feel veri veri fortuante n i cant haf a better life den dis man..
i recently freed miself frm emotional torture..
n mi wonderful frens pulled mi along.. gave mi assurance..
i overcame mi inconfidence n fear..
i survived all dese...

i learnt one thing u noe frm dis incident
sum things u noe dat r painful for u
it's either u let go.. it's nt giving up.. jus dat wad's meant to b is meant to b
or it's either u take it as a pinch of salt

u n mi.. im taking everything as a pinch of salt.. i realised dat either way wld hurt u.. n allowing u to stay by mi side wld b less painful for u
but im nt sure for miself thou

i realised dat i haf fallen in love wif unrealistic shows
but i still believe that dose fairytale n romantic love stories r possible in different ways..

i still dream of prince charming every nite..
as i grow up day by day
mi definition of love matures u noe

wen i was a kid.. i tot love meant dat the little boy hu wld look at u afar
wen i was 10.. i tot love was jus like dose soap chinese drama serials
wen i was 11.. i tot love u liking mi n mi liking u
wen i was 12..i tot love was u liking mi n mi liking u mi ensuring dat u always liked mi n no other gal
wen i was 13.. i tot love had to b dis tall handsome guy hu's my 4eva eyecandy
wen i was 14.. i tot love had to b always dis guy i can nver get mi hands on cos he's eyes r always on another gal
wen i was 15.. i tot love was impossible n dat guys were flirts
until later part of the yr.. dat changed n i tot i liked dis guy.. n it was liddat for months..

until again.. a few days ago.. i realised dat the guy u like
mus not onli like u
but also b sum1.. u grow up wif.. study tgt
until u all r old enuff to get married..
haf kids tgt..

he's ur bes fren..
the guy hu nver fails to make fun of u.. bicker wif u
yet wen u r in trouble.. he's always dere for u

dat's mi definition of love now..
i wldn meet such a guy now..

all the tall tanned stuff.. u realised how crap it is now..

n how childish u were wen u went WHOA at sum hot bod u saw on TV..

once again... i noe dat wen i say all dese
no1 will bliff mi besides mayb ms ang

wen i told u pple i wld take Rs.. nobody bliffed mi
jus like how thomas edison told every1 dat he wld invent the telly n no1 bliffed mi n laffed at him...

i feel like edison now okay..
call urselves mi frens?